In my house we dont pray as a family. We never have prayed at meals together, or before bed, or at any point really at all.
And, to be honest, I dont always pray every day.
Its an embarrassing fact and when I do pray and read the Bible I love it but then I get out of the habit and... forget.
I used to try to force myself to "if you see something yellow, you should pray" and different tricks but I would only see something yellow at an inconvenient time, such as a timed exam or history presentation. Or, more specifically, I 98% of the time I would just forget.
So to combat this, over the summer I created a daily reminder through the google calander. I plan blog things on there. I keep track of when to charge my calculator and take my supplements through there, so why not prayer reminders too?
Its both been super helpful to see the reminders yet I dont know how much of a difference it makes quantitatively. I mean, the reminders are great, but I still will go "okay, I will do that in two minutes" and then never get to it.
My reminder goes out at 8 pm and as I write this its 11:44. I still have not talked to God, even though I really really really really should, since college requires a lot of really important decisions. People have asked me to pray for them. There is a lot on my mind.
I really dont have an excuse not too.
And I was thinking about the way that earlier one of my friends said that she was hurt and will be on crutches and right away I responded to her:
me: WHAT? What happened? Are you alright?
me: You sound like you need hugs:
me: *hugs*
me: *hugs*
me: *hugs*
me: also WHO HURT YOU?
Clearly this friend was a high enough priority to drop everything and make sure she will be okay.
And she is quite important to me, which isnt a bad thing at all, but I can almost hear God asking "Why do you treat me so poorly even though you treat other people so well?" which is a very good point.
We all have things that we will drop everything for:
- A mom realizes her baby boy is sick and calls off work to stay home with him.
- A girl hears of a softball tournament this weekend and packs her bags to leave within the hour.
- A friend texts that she was hurt and I stopped what I was doing to check in
- A college student really likes to watch a certain show and schedules his classes around it so he will never miss an episode.
- A couple loves their pet dog so much that they sacrifice their wants to pay for her to have chemo upon being diagnosed with cancer.
- A man wants to be the first one to get the new phone in his town so he camps out at the store for a week.
And yet, when it comes to God we say, oh I cant drop everything.
I'm a busy individual, we say.
Or, we say, God youre pretty nice and um, thanks for taking care of me, and also could you fix my issue a little faster next time, but, you know, well I am too busy to talk to you right now.... sorry.
Its kinda pathetic, guys.
Also... I should stop talking about praying and actually talk to God for a bit.
Bye for now!
// If you want to leave a comment, maybe answer: When do you drop everything?