So I emailed Jon, who made the video. In my email I said this:
I feel like I am really struggling, emotionally and spiritually and its affecting my mental health because my trich (I pull out my hair when I am stressed and overwhelmed and not doing well) is bad. And people always say "Oh you really thirst/hunger for God" but right now I feel really small and helpless and there is so much doubt going on that things will be okay. A few days ago I was watching your video about relentlessly search for God and idk how that even applies right now, how pursuing God at all costs applies to....
It was a really long email actually. 1486 words.
But still Jon replied and maybe he already had it planned but a few days after that he made a whole 1/2 hour long video that I love(d) about what we were going back and forth about.
Here it it. The end is really good. You could watch like the last few minutes only.
Or if you have extra time (Hey its Easter, you got time!) you could watch the whole thing or even start at 16:50 ish. It gets really good there.