A few days ago, I sent an email to a friend about things being hard and about God answering prayer and about God doing things in my timing versus… his. And her reply was super encouraging. So I deleted a few details, but otherwise, here it is.
Well Kate, what you need now is peace. You need some prayer.
I can ask another community that I manage to pray for YOU. They won't know your last name or your email. But I want to pray for you and you do sound very disappointed and that is understandable. But the Peace of the Lord is SO strong. It's not the maybe peace, or the almost peace, it's the peace that passes understanding and that's what you need right now.
He sees tears. He sees sorrow. I know this for a fact. Even the little details of whats going on, He sees that too, I know He does. He is powerful enough to know everything. All things.
Right now you need to "rest" in the Lord. Sometimes we pray and we pray and we pray and when we stop worrying and give God some space to work things out, then God finally answers. I'm not advising you to stop but I've seen hundreds of detailed prayers answered. I don't have time tonight to tell you all of them but God does hear every word we say and we pray.
I am so happy that you found out through your own experience that you can't blackmail God. Good, lesson learned. Keep praying but seek peace for yourself too.
There are a lot of hurt in the world these days. Dark places. I find that very sad. Like I said before the devil is the god of this world, according to the Bible. We who believe in Jesus are just passing through. We are NOT of this world. This world is NOT our home. We get homesick for our real home which is with the Lord. He is more powerful than any evil force, he is for us and he has things under control. He is the Almighty eternal Creator of the universe and he loves us more than we can ever imagine.
I prescribe for you to set a place dedicated to peace. A place in your room. Take your Bible, some water, and relax with the Lord. He wants to spend time with you. He sees your desperate prayers. He wants to comfort you. Jesus taught us to call God Abba, which means dada, or papa. It's a very tender word. Let your Jesus be your good friend and take time to just sit and be with Him. You can pray a little, sing a little, read the Bible a little and wait for HIS peace to fall upon you, okay?
Try it and I'll be praying,