When I was in middle school for some reason I thought I was fat. I dont know why, I certainly wasnt. But I was very insecure and embarrassed by my body and I thought that I was fat.
When I went to 9th grade, I came across a website which showed the images of women by age, height, and weight or something like that. I entered my own height and weight and, looking at the images I saw of women who look like me I realized I am extremely thin.
I looked at myself in the mirror again and was confused at how I ever thought I could possibly be fat.
At the time I was also friends with a girl with an eating disorder. Often she would say "well I had food yesterday" and "I only exercised for an hour yesterday because volleyball practice was cancelled, I'll have to make up for it today" and "Oh, I guess I can treat myself to two chips if I get 100% on the math test later" and "If only I could lose another five pounds" and things like that.
As much as I was concerned for her, I also didn't like that somehow I weighed less than her. I ate lots of food. I hardly excersized. One day I remember she was so proud of herself. She came to lunch and announce pad she was "finally under 105 lbs" and I remember being less. It was odd.
After that, I wanted to reverse diet. I didn't know the name for it then, but that's exactly what has been running through my mind for a long time.
People say "why do you want to gain pounds? Why do you want to eat so much?"
To answer them, because my body needs to gain weight. Needs more nutrients.
How to reverse diet: To gain muscle, add calories slowly. To gain fat, add calories a lot.
Either way, break some diet rules. I mean, eat good nutrient rich foods, but you *can* eat after dark. You can eat a few large meals everyday.
So I started to eat a ton.
But I wasnt really eating "healthy" as I transitioned to eating more. I was extremely stressed and my hair was falling out a lot.
I started to take a supplement in the spring of this year and my hairfall stopped within a few weeks. I have now finished the third bottle of the pill and my body can tell when I havent taken them yet that day.
I think these have really helped my health.
You can read a full review of the brand I have been taking here:
At first, my body freaked out because I was not drinking enough water (chapped lips, my fingers were dry and gross, etc) but then I increased how much water I was drinking by a lot and that helped.
I still drink an excess of water and highly recommend it.
There were also a few weeks in the spring where I was simply not even hungry. As a result, I had a period of fasting where I ate very little during this time.
I do not recommend doing this without talking to your parents and seeing a doctor. Please take care of yourself.
One day (a Tuesday?) someone offered me a small homemade chocolate-peanut butter treat and I happily tried it. And one Sunday I got my favorite donut out of the box at church out of habit.
Other than that, I ate very little and the strange thing was that my mental health was very good and trich (which I have suffered with for over a decade) disappeared. For those that dont know, trich is a mental disorder where I pull out my hair.
It was very important to stay hydrated during this time but I felt very good and energetic. Honestly it seems that when I don’t eat my mental and emotional health is better. I can handle stress better, problem solve better, and make good decisions. Perhaps because I was spending a ton of time with God that helped too?
I was looking online once and found that mice which fast are more energetic, are hyper-alert, have better memories, etc.
So I think that is cool. For I while in the spring-early summer I had adopted a feeding schedule where there a 6-8 hour feeding window and then no food for 16-18 hours. So typically I ate from noon to 8pm and then no more until noon the next day. I liked it a lot and my body went into a mini-fast and I felt better. I like to think of it like a lifestyle and not a eating disorder but I'm sure there are people who feel its a really bad idea....
People don’t talk about it because you cant make money by not eating a food or buying their good but its worth a try. Again talk to your parents and doctor. People on the internet says that it decreases the risk for Alzheimers, strokes, and a few other life changing issues.... but it may not be right for you!
I think one of the most important lessons to experimenting with Intermittent Fasting (other than asking for a doctor or parent's advise!) is don’t make it painful. If someone offers you food at 10 pm, consider eating it an option. Not all the time, but don’t make life impossible.
I also did some research and found that meat contains something that makes you feel tired and depressed: arachidonic acid
Its funny because a few years ago, dad was all like “so lets go vegetarian” and I was always like lets not.... but currently I have a position that I don’t eat "bird" or what we typically know as poultry. Chicken, turkey, etc have never been a favorite and if I'm not going to like eating it and its going to make me feel awful, I dont know why I still was putting it on my plate.
I cant say that I am considering full vegetarianism, because I really am not. I eat meat all the time.
There are all these good reasons to go vegetarian:
I honestly am not focused on body image when I talk about fasting. In fact, I am trying to *gain* weight and I know that this is going to make it harder. Many people lose weight when they do a fasting diet.
Then again, I dont go near scales and could care less what I weigh. Thats just my personal approach.
I think its important to try new things and experiment until you find what works for you.
Lately (Phase 5?) I have just been eating what I want when I want, and even that plan has a lot of fluidity. If I ever want to change it up, I would be okay with that.
There is a local church who hosts a "Diaper Depot" every month where they provide diapers, food, produce, clothing, information on help paying for utilities, and a comfortable place to be for a few hours.
I have helped out pretty much since it started, last year but I dont think I have talked about it here. Its actually like my favorite thing all month.
So, I wanted to share a very long message I had sent a friend about the one last month.... I have broken the message into different paragraphs so its easier to read.
me: Cool. So there was no one helping who spoke French Creole today and that was a little problematic but we made do. And there werent many kids in general with the ACT today but it was okay.
As for people we were helping, there are always a few that stick with me.... Once a woman in tears because she was so grateful, sometimes a tiny child who is so happy to get a stuffed animal or cup of water, it just depends. Today there was a woman who was so nice and her baby was in size 3 now but once she had come and gotten newborn ones. She had extra of the newborn ones and brought them to pass on "here, give them to someone who needs them" and she had little yet wanted to give as well.
And there was a woman who didnt know english and knew less spanish than we did. Shuff was talking once about a girl in the area who was smart but she knew a mayan language first and then some spanish but hardly any english so maybe the woman today came from a place which they spoke a non-spanish language and she was fluent in that. I felt bad for her but it would be interesting to know how she ended up in Chambersburg.
And there were people coming in wearing blankets and tshirts because they didnt have coats and that made me sad. We had a lot of clothes to give, and it all disappeared so fast but so much of it was shorts and tshirts and I wish we could have had more warm coats to give them.
That said, there were a ton of socks and that was cool. People should have socks just like its important to have a home with heat.
And there was Gleaning Project stuff and someone had baggies with rice in it. One time they brought kale and no one wanted it, but no one complained about rice. Its like a staple of Hispanic food and I think it made the people who have come from Guatemala or Mexico more comfortable. It would be like giving Kate potato bread and I would be like "a person who gives me potato rolls is a friend".
I was doing the front tables again, trying to Spanish. They had a raffle for dinner tickets and I didnt know the word for raffle. But there werent too many new people this time so I was just thinking too.
At the beginning Mrs. Stahl was saying that there was a woman who heard about it and donated $1 which is such a small amount of money. Yet they can use that $1 to get 13 diapers (this was the number they gave idk if its right, maybe they meant each diaper is 13 cents) and someone compared it to the story in the Bible where they had a couple fish and bread and fed peoples with it. The people were like "Why Jesus, there are hungry people" and he was like "right, so give them food." and this was like that, welcoming them inside from the cold for a few hours and instead of "someone should solve the problem" being the person to do that.
And on that note, I went to Sunday School for first time since july last week because Rodney was teaching but I am so hesitant to go just because I never take anything away and right now I dont have the energy to listen to "you must like this candidate" stuff, plus my sister is there and I dont want her to twist my words. Its just such a waste of time... but this just feels so different to me. This feels good.
Title: Next Door as It Is in Heaven: Living Out God's Kingdom in Your Neighborhood
Authors: Lance Ford, Brad Brisco
Publication Date: August 1, 2016
Provided by: Tyndale
Subjects: hospitality, community
There was a time when neighbors knew each other’s names, when small children and the old and infirm alike had more than their families looking out for them. There was a time when our neighborhoods were our closest communities.
No more. Neighborhoods have become the place where nobody knows your name. Into this neighborhood crisis the words of Jesus still ring true: Second only to the command to love God is the command to “love your neighbor as yourself.”
In Next Door as It Is in Heaven, Lance Ford and Brad Brisco offer first principles and best practices to make our neighborhoods into places where compassion and care are once again part of the culture, where good news is once again more than words, and where the love of God can be once again rooted and established.
This was a good book, guys.
There wasnt too much that differed with my beliefs. The book focused on the idea that technology has driven us apart and that this is a problem.
No longer do we have neighborhood shops, schools, and churches.
Now we have Tv's, phones, all sorts of different items to keep us occupied in our suburian homes.
I liked that they exposed some faults in our American churches:
My favorite page of the book can be paraphrased:
Dont be against culture, dont be isolated from, dont be absorbed into, but shine within it.
The book opened by reflecting on old neighborhood communities and I think, to some extent, its wrong to expect we can go back to a culture that existed generations ago. I dont think that this is what the authors intended but it was still odd.
Also throughout there was an extrememe amount of facts and figures thrown in, like the authors wanted to prove that they did their research and beat you over the head with it. The message is solid but there are many references I dont understand at all. For example, I am to young for I love Lucy.
This confused me because I thought that the book was written for a younger audience. However, if the authors were writing to people in their own (older) generation, wouldnt they know of I Love Lucy?
They presented the book as if us younger people have never been taught how to have a community, as if we are limited by technology and cars and different modern things that we need to learn from the past. However, if the men are writing to their peers, the problem is not that they have never experienced small connected neighborhoods, but something else, like laziness or arrogance. These are not addressed in the book.
Also, they translation-hop. there is a time and a place to study verses in different translations but here they almost seem to twist them to their needs. One chapter uses ESV, the next The Message.
I understand that some people prefer different translations, however I dont like it when you search and search until you find one you can twist to agree with your perspective.
The authors quote many similar books and that was a bit annoying for me. It would have been much easier to share a list of references and be doen with it. Here is where the answers are
In some ways I really like this book, but I dont think I can give it 5 stars. Its not even that the bad parts severely outweighed the good but just that ther was more to say.
Again, to me, the target audience seems to be younger people, hovever as I write this I am questioning whether it might be older people instead....
If you are still trying to order some family or friends a book, this wouldnt be a bad one. I do want to make that clear.
About the authors
Lance Ford is the cofounder and director of Shapevine.com, and the former director of the Northwood Church Multiplication Center. With more than 20 years of experience as a pastor and church planter, Lance is a writer, coach, consultant, and an adjunct professor. Ford and his wife live in Kansas City, Missouri.
Brad Brisco is currently the Director of Bivocational Church Planting for the North American Mission Board. He holds a doctorate in the area of missional ecclesiology; his doctoral thesis was on assisting existing congregations in transitioning in a missional direction. He also serves on the National Leadership team for Forge America Mission Training Network. Brad is the co-author of Missional Essentials, a twelve-week small group study guide and The Missional Quest: Becoming a Church of the Long Run. He blogs regularly at missionalchurchnetwork.com
Bryn Mawr '21!!!